WEEPY GIRL........

So Michael and I went to see Dr. Halepota today for a check-up since leaving the hospital...I'll admit I had a very weepy day. I was upset because it was taking me so long to gain weight and feel better... They were like "you do know you were in the hospital for a month on feeding tubes right". Oh I don't know whats wrong with me. For some reason I was struck with the realization that this is going to be a hard year. HA HA... What is wrong with me? So the next step is to go in and get the tumor out if there's still one left and clean out any remaining tissue. I see my surgeon next Thursday so he will let us know when our surgery date will be scheduled. Depending on the surgery they will then know if I have to go for more chemo. Of course my prayer is that I don't. Please join me in praying that I am healed healthy and whole. Most of you know I do a devotional every day to keep me focused, positive and not have pathetic pitty partys for myself. This one was especially meaningful to me. Sorry its a little long one.

FOLLOW ME ONE STEP AT A TIME. THAT IS ALL I REQUIRE OF YOU. IN FACT THAT IS THE ONLY WAY TO MOVE THROUGH THIS TIME. YOU SEE HUGE MOUNTAINS LOOMING, AND YOU START WONDERING HOW YOUR'RE GOING TO SCALE THOSE HEIGHTS. MEANWHILE, BECAUSE YOUR NOT LOOKING WHERE YOUR GOING, YOU STUMBLE. AS I HELP YOU GET BACK ON YOUR FEET, YOU TELL ME HOW WORRIED YOU ARE ABOUT THE CLIFFS UP AHEAD. BUT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TODAY, MUCH LESS TOMORROW. OUR PATH MAY TAKE AN ABRUPT TURN, LEADING YOU AWAY FROM THOSE MOUNTAINS. THERE MAY BE AN EASIER WAY UP THE MOUNTAINS THAN IS VISIBLE FROM YOUR DISTANCE. IF I DO LEAD YOU UP THE CLIFFS, I WILL EQUIP YOU THOROUGHLY FOR THE STRENUOUS CLIMB. I WILL EVEN GIVE MY ANGELS CHARGE OVER YOU,TO PERSERVE YOU IN ALL YOUR WAYS. WALK BY FAITH TRUSTING ME TO OPEN THE WAY BEFORE YOU.... THANK YOU JESUS LOVE BRAN